I have sooooo many things that I really want to blog about. To make sure I remember them all, I have made a list. It's quite long. I wasn't sure what I wanted to blog about right now, so I decided to "start from the beginning." I didn't know where the "beginning" was, so I went with the beginning of the year. To start off this post I would just like to list a few things, to get them out of the way. These are things that I want to say but don't want to make a whole post about.
1. I FINALLY got a new laptop. I've been waiting two years, but the wait was worth it. I hope.
2. Christmas wasn't all that exciting this year, but that's okay. I would make a post about it, but I've complained enough. I'm trying to move on from that.
3. Since my last post, I've come to realize that, due to events of 2012, holidays now mean pretty much nothing to me. They're just days like all the rest.
4. I hope to be writing more blogs now that I have a reliable computer to type on. I normally just write them on my phone, but I much prefer using a laptop.
5. My laptop has a keyboard that is a lot different than what I'm used to, so I apologize if my next several posts are full of typos. I hope it doesn't take too long for me to start navigating my computer like a pro. ;)
Moving on to the point of this post. I will split it into two parts. 2012 and...you guessed it...2013. I won't bore you with the details of me cleaning my room on New Years Eve and cleaning the house on New Years Day.
2012
For me, 2012 was split into two very different times. I will classify them as "before Mexico" and "after Mexico," since that was a real turning point in my life. It also conveniently came around the middle of the year.
Before Mexico, I was generally happy. I had lots of friends, (or so I thought) and life was pretty good. Sure, I had my few off days, but it wasn't too bad. Before Mexico, I was a junior in high school. When I smiled, I really was happy.
I'm not sure if it really was Mexico that changed me, or if it was more the things that happened soon after I got back. Probably both.
I'm not 100% sure if I really was a lot different after Mexico, but it seems like I am. I don't think that I'm the kind of "changed" that people expect after a mission trip. I've felt more alone than I ever have. I've been depressed. (That's no secret...to anyone who reads my blog. Everyone else is completely oblivious.) I get mad a lot easier. I've lost most of my friends. I'm even more closed up than I used to be. Of course, since Mexico, I've started my senior year of high school. That alone has cause a lot of changes. Mostly good ones.
Now, this may sound like Mexico was a bad thing. It absolutely was not. I love Mexico with all of my heart, and I have been working really hard and saving up to go back this year. I feel like there is going to be a huge change that will happen inside of me when I go back.
2013
I'm pretty sure 2013 will be split into 3 very different parts. I'm excited for each part and I can't wait to see what happens. Since nothing has happened yet, and there's not much to say about it, I'm just going to list the 3 parts.
1. January-May. My final semester of high school. Oh. My. Gosh. I have so much school work to do during this time. I'm pretty sure it will kill me.
2. May-August. The summer after high school/before college. So much to do in such a short period of time! I'm hoping to make this the best time of my life.
3. August-December. My first semester of COLLEGE. Speaking of college...I think that will be my next post. It dawned on me the other day that the last thing I posted on my blog about college was that I had no clue what I was going to do if I didn't get that perfect ACT score. Well, I can tell you this much. I didn't get the score I wanted, but God makes anything that's in His will work out. I promise :)
Until next time, remember to smile, even if it's fake. If anything, it's a good workout for your face.
