Trust? What is that?

Right now I'm at Walmart getting an oil change and a tire fixed. I'm bored. So here's a blog post I've had on my mind for a few days.

Lets start with a definition.
Trust-to rely upon or place confidence in someone or something

Fact: I don't fully trust anyone. There are a few people that I trust a little bit, but the person I trust most in the would barely knows anything about me.

I don't trust people with my thoughts, feelings, or anything personal in general. I could trust someone to drive my car or use my phone, but anything involving emotion or words stays inside.

I don't know why I have such a trust issue. I don't know if not trusting anyone is an issue, but it seems like it should be. I feel like life would be easier to live if I had someone I could trust.

I'm so bad at this that I don't even know where to start to get to the point of trusting someone. I don't open up easily. I don't cry in front of people. It's like I'm pretending to be so strong and put together. I act like everything is perfect. And I hate it.

I don't want to be that person that is scared of showing feelings, but I am. I don't want to be someone who acts strong, but I do. I don't want to keep my thoughts hidden, but they are.

I want to change, but I can't. I don't know how. I don't know where to start. I don't know who to talk to.

I trust no one.